Being a Christian

Lately I have been wrestling with "being a Christian." I know...I'm probably not supposed to do that. But I've been wrestling with the while idea of being a "good" Christian and tired of failing to be a "good" Christian and almost wondering if being a "Christian" was right for me cause it didn't seem "to work." After a Facebook chat with Kate , talking with Jason, and finding hope in words heard during Sunday school and in worship music, plus being able to pray again, I decided that I need to be a Christian. But this is the kind of Christian I want to be:

Cry Of My Heart

Lately things inside my heart haven't been so smooth. Things inside my head have been discouraging and tearing me down. I have been failing. I was sharing these thoughts with a friend, and this is the prayer she replied with.

Father,
We cry out for your hand of mercy to heal us. We are weak and we need your love to free us. You are our rock, our strength in weakness. Rescue us. You are our hope and Your promises NEVER fail us. Our desire is to follow You forever. You are so good to us. Forgive us everyday we wake up and aren't blown away by the incredible expanse that is Your love. Our names are written on Your hand and we thank you for this. You are the greatest EVER! May you forgive us for our imperfections, our lack of faith, and our doubts. We thank you for loving us through them, and for remaining faithful even when we don't deserve it. You are Almighty God and we offer up our hearts to you as living sacrifices. Thank you for your perfect peace.

Help us to love you in spite of our human incapacity to understand your perfect love.

Take it all, Lord.

Amen.